April 5, 2010. Today marks the 16th death anniversary
of the Legendary Icon of Alternative Rock who was the former lead
vocals of Nirvana. He is Kurt Cobain and I have always admired his music
when I was a teenager fascinated with rock and roll.
Just last night, I found some materials both at
WIKIPEDIA and THE SMOKING GUN referring to his death and I thought of
posting them for record and reference purposes. I am planning to post
his profile as well so I need not to google it anymore.
Anyway, 16 years after his death via an alleged
suicide, I still have some doubts being an avid fan. Much has been
written already about this topic that I need not to elaborate but I do
hope that it was suicide indeed and not murder. He has been one of my
idol in the 90’s and I used to wear a shirt with the exact image of his
face as posted in this blog article. I’m a fan.
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KURT COBAIN : THE SUICIDE NOTE (1 PAGE)
To Boddah
Speaking from the tongue of an experienced
simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile
complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand.
All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses
over the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics
involved with independence and the embracement of your community has
proven to be very true. I haven’t felt the excitement of listening to as
well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many
years now. I feel guity beyond words about these things.
For example when we’re back stage and the lights
go out and the manic roar of the crowds begins., it doesn’t affect me
the way in which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seemed to love, relish
in the the love and adoration from the crowd which is something I
totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can’t fool you, any one of you.
It simply isn’t fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would
be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I’m having 100%
fun. Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I
walk out on stage. I’ve tried everything within my power to appreciate
it (and I do,God, believe me I do, but it’s not enough). I appreciate
the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. It
must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when
they’re gone. I’m too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to
regain the enthusiasms I once had as a child.
On our last 3 tours, I’ve had a much better
appreciation for all the people I’ve known personally, and as fans of
our music, but I still can’t get over the frustration, the guilt and
empathy I have for everyone. There’s good in all of us and I think I
simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking
sad. The sad little, sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why
don’t you just enjoy it? I don’t know!
I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition
and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what i used to be,
full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone
is good and will do her no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to
where I can barely function. I can’t stand the thought of Frances
becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I’ve become.
I have it good, very good, and I’m grateful, but
since the age of seven, I’ve become hateful towards all humans in
general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along that have
empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I
guess.
Thank you all from the pit of my burning,
nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I’m
too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don’t have the passion anymore,
and so remember, it’s better to burn out than to fade away.
Peace, love, empathy.
Kurt Cobain
Kurt Cobain
Frances and Courtney, I’ll be at your alter.
Please keep going Courtney, for Frances.
For her life, which will be so much happier without me.
Please keep going Courtney, for Frances.
For her life, which will be so much happier without me.
I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU!
KURT COBAIN : MISSING PERSON REPORT (1 PAGE)
KURT COBAIN : COPS FIND COBAIN’S BODY (4 PAGES)
KURT COBAIN : POLICE CONTACTS WITH COURTNEY LOVE (3 PAGES)
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