The mystery, or not, surrounding the death of Kurt Cobain seems kind of pointless to me. The guy is gone. I read the book Love & Death
by Max Wallace a couple of years ago now and while it was very
entertaining, I didn’t put much stock in it to be honest. If there was
even a shred of credible evidence that hellcat Courtney Love was
involved I figure she’d be behind bars by now. It’s not like she
hasn’t fractured a few laws in her time so they’d be all over her like a
cheap suit if she had anything to do with this fiasco. The rise and
fall of Nirvana isn’t much more than an unbelievable footnote in Rock
history, but it’s still very aggravating to me. The reluctant Rock
Star thing gets old in a hurry doesn’t it? None of mere mortals can
really know what the pressure is like I suppose, but it sure seems like
you’d have to have some kind of idea heading into something like getting
on stage before you actually do it don’t you? I love live music,
always have. That’s not to be confused with live albums mind you, but
there’s something about seeing your favorite tunes being performed live
that has always done it for me. I can’t explain it to be honest. I
know scores of people who wouldn’t be caught dead at a rock concert.
Too bad for them. But if performing live isn’t your thing, can’t you
just morph into Steely Dan or XTC? I mean, you have to a dominate
studio band for sure, but isn’t it possible? When it came to Kurt Cobain
I think he just didn’t want to be dissected in any way shape or
form. I know his stomach was bothering him in ways I probably can’t
imagine, but you’d like to believe he had other options wouldn’t you?
Do
you remember all of those MTV Unplugged Records in the early 90′s? They
were all the rage. 10,000 Maniacs, Rod Stewart, Bob Dylan, Bruce
Springsteen, Alice in Chains, Neil Young and on and on. The greatest
big bad daddy all of all MTV Unplugged records by far? Yep. Nirvana.
The date was November 18, 1993. Nirvana, ignoring their hits for the
most part, played an acoustic set before everybody that was anybody it
seemed, and covered artists like David Bowie, Leadbelly, The Meat
Puppets and The Vaselines. It was eclectic and mesmerizing. The
lights weren’t out, but it was less dangerous. Candles and Cobain. I
videotaped it off of MTV, I bought the CD, I bought the DVD and I read
all about it. Come to think of it, the only other MTV production I did
that with was Page & Plant’s No Quarter. Now my DVD collection is
full of one off like The Beastie Boys “I F*%king Shot That!” or any
number of Rockumentary type DVDS complete with live performances. How
often do I get to them? Almost never, but I love owning Nirvana’s MTV
Unplugged. For one thing, it was about six months before Kurt checked
out and it preserves his powers at his peak forevermore. I don’t even
know where to start when trying to compare the death of Kurt Cobain to
some of earlier heroes like Jim Morrison and Jimi Hendrix…frankly I’m
not at all sure there is a comparison…but it’s definitely vexing. How
great was Nirvana? I know I loved ‘em more than Pearl Jam at the time,
but I don’t myself reaching for their records all that often anymore.
Some of that is that terrestrial radio only plays about seven Nirvana
songs anymore, but some of that is that time marches on. If he were
around to state his case I might think differently, but it was April 5,
1994 that Cobain erased himself. We’re coming up on 17 years now. He
just doesn’t have the body of work that forces us back. Plus the
success of The Foo Fighters, while not Nirvana, is quite the
distraction…in a good way. Still, 35 million records sold worldwide
(just for those three studio albums mind you) shows you how big Nirvana
was.
If he
had lived, February 20, 2011 would have been Kurt’s 44th birthday if my
math is correct. I may have told this story already, but I’ve been
repeating myself for years now on this site so why stop now. There is a
building in Brighton Center, MA that I drive by every time I visit my
chiropractor, that I distinctly remember being initiated to the sound of
Nirvana around 1991 or so. Bleach? Never heard of it until the
re-release. Nevermind, released September 24, 1991, didn’t set the
world on fire instantly, but the buzz was none stop for two years it
seemed. When I finally got the hang of “In Bloom” and “Lithium” I was
just like everyone else who loved this band. I was all the way down the
line with them. I remember Incesticide, capitalizing on the Nirvana
buzz with a “B” cut smorgasbord, was released in 1992 I took a shine to
cuts like “Aneurysm” instantly. I loved “Something in The Way” from
Nevermind even with it’s exacerbatingsilence at the end of the track. I
chopped that thing to its rightful 3:15 or whatever with the beautiful
Audacity software. Love that stuff. Nothing like being at the gym,
totally concentrating on the hard body in front of you, when you realize
the silence has gone on too long. I fixed that years ago, but I’m
always on the lookout for it now. The Black Keys have one of those
where if you let the track play it goes some twenty minutes. Man I hate
that . Fixed that one too. Anyway, see the the lunchbox and thermos
above? That’s how big Nirvana was. Man I used to love my lunchboxes
when I was a kid. Now they beat you up and make fun of you for them,
but they were quite the fashion statement back in the 70′s. I think I
had a Monkees lunchbox…I pray it wasn’t a Partridge Family one…but I
digress once again.
Kurt
Cobain was yet another heroin addict as his life came to a close. I’m
still finishing up KeithRichards’ 500 page life story and, as someone
who never tried heroin, not even once, it gets a bit tough to relate
after a few thousand of these stories. Keith tells it like it was and
even if his editor let his King’s English slide on occasion, the book is
well written and highly entertaining. I wish I could say the same for
the Gus Van Sant’s movie Last Days, allegedly revolving around the final
days of the life of Kurt Cobain. If you can follow the ”plot” you are
my hero. I know it’s an independent film taking full artistic license,
but that film just bored the daylights out of me and you know I wanted
to love it. A junkie’s life is definitely not glamorous, but I find it
hard to believe the guy stumbled around in woods of the cold Northwest
barely coherent for weeks on end. Maybe I don’t get the junkie life,
but this movie was a dog whatever story it was trying to relate. And I
love The Independent Film Channel. I don’t need action or drama every
instant. I loved The Minus Man (1999) starring Owen Wilson for
example. Totally spacey and esoteric, but at least you had a handle on
what was going on. Last Days? I knew the story in advance and I still
couldn’t follow that drivel. Sorry Gus. Nothing personal. Anyway,
Kurt allegedly had some emotional issues to go along with his
healthproblems. It could be said that anyone who takes his own life,
particularly with a beautiful daughter to care for, is in serious need
of psychiatric care, but that’s not for me to say (even though I just
did).
Nirvana
ruled the Alternative Rock roost, even with serious competitors like
Pearl Jam in their immediate space, from 1992 to about 1995 or so.
From The Banks of The Muddy Wiskah (1996) and other posthumous records
tried to plug the void, but soon it was clear the Nirvana catalogue,
published or unpublished, had been exhausted…at least legally to that
point. I rarely follow the Box Set migration, mainly because I normally
own all of the CDs of the band in question, but I’m sure there a few
tidbits from the couple that Nirvana has released in the 00′s. I guess
I just got tired of waiting around in Nirvana’s case. Nevermind has
been burnt to a crisp so if I reach for a Nirvana record it’s likely to
be In Utero followed by Bleach. Still, MTV Unplugged still gives me
great joy. I don’t know if this open wound will ever really be healed
in the public eye, but it’s stories like these that just leave us
wondering and wanting. I never did get to see Nirvana play live. My
loss big time. I know they played Spit or Axis (whatever it was called
at the time) on Lansdowne Street here in Boston in the early 90′s, but I
wasn’t quite hip enough at the time I guess. That’s the quest at all
times. See this band before they get too big. I think Soundgarden
played Metro or Citi or Avalon (the Patrick Lyons edifice that morphed
so many times it turned into The House of Blues when he got tired of
doing the rebuilding himself) in the late 80′s or early 90′s too. Did I
bother to see them when someone uttered the very words I just did about
seeing them before they get too big? Nooooo. Not cool enough. I got
my share in though and I still do to this day. I don’t care if I’m half
a century old. Anyway, Kurt if you can hear my thoughts…I’m really
sorry you felt like you had to split, but you gave us a lot of great
music and for that I am thankful. Happy 44th my friend from The Giant
Panther.
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